All Done

Well i'm done my degree. All the course work is finnished and i am out in the real world right now trying to figure out what the hell i am going to do next. i still haven't gotten all my marks back yet, i'm still waiting for one course to come in. my grades are not as stellar as i'd hoped that they'd be, but i don't think there is anything i can do about it now. I've beenneglecting the job hunt all week as i have been reading a book and just being a waste of life in front of the television. but hey, honestly last week was the first week i had off, and with nothing to do in a very long time, i think in almost a year. it was nice. but now i have to kick myself into job hunting and figure out what the next step is. that is the hard part because i really have no clue, and what i decide can really have a huge impact on what i'll be doing for years to come.
i dunno, i guess we'lljust have to wait and see.

2 more days

I have been working on this term project for more than 48hours now. i am ready for it to be done. i still have to do the write up but the stats are all done and i don't really give a fuck if my tables and graphs are all screwed up. i really need to get this thing done. i might not last these next two days.
worst weekend of my life.

The End Is Nigh!

There is a light at the end of the tunnel!
The end is so close i can taste it. Freedome! I'm really anxious to have school over and done with. I only have an exam tomorrow, a 15 page paper due saturday in the afternoon, and my last exam on monday. Then I will enter a vegitative state on the livingroom couch and not leave it until i am forced to such as hunting for a job and all that fun stuff that i need to do. Since exam-time hit, the house has kind to transformed into a study hall. Chris and Ariel were studying in the livingroom last night and Danielle was in the kitchen working on her paper. When i got home after running it felt like i had walked into Rutherford South and that any noise i made was glared upon as unwelcome. that didn't actually happen of course, but it sure felt like it with the three of them being there and no noise. it was weird. and the same thing just happened, I went up to make myself breakfast (lunch actually, considering it is past noon) and there was chris and Danielle, in the same spots as last night working ferverously. I didn't even say good morning, as it just suddenly became so awkward to be up there. I know this is probably all in my head but still, how would any of you responeded to this situation?

Well, time stops for no man, and if i do not get to work and start studying and writing this paper, i'm going to have a major all-night bender on my hands come friday, which is not cool.

peace out yo!

Procastination Update

Last night i slept for 14 hours!
This was to make-up for the many, many hours of non-sleep of last week as i tried desperately to get all of my 3 papers done on time. I had to get an extension on one of them, but overall, they were all done and handed in on time. And as a result i just crashed. but now i am all caught up on my sleep. and i have to do it all over again this week so that i can get another 15/20 page paper done and study for a final. thisis going to be fun, especially since i havne't even started this assignment. I think i might have to get another extension for my 392 paper, though i really hate getting extensions. i guess that means that i should get to work and stop up-dating this thing until school is over and done with (April 24).
Later Dudes and Dudettes, i have work to do!
Rob.

In This, The Best of All Possible Worlds

I got my results from the JET program today. I didn't get it. I didn't even get put on the alternate list. I just wasn't good enough to make it past the second round of selection. I am very disappointed. I really have no idea what i am going to do this year now. I haven't really looked for a job, as i've been looking east ward hoping that i'd get the chance to leave the country. not that Edmonton is a bad place to live, but i really wanted to get out into the world and experience it all for myself.

but thats okay, i didn't get JET, i'll just keep pluging along trying to write this 20 page paper. i was in HUB today after doing some quick library research for some more books to help out with my paper, and Campus Security comes up to me and tells me that i've been ID'd as a guy who punched out some girl's teeth at the powerplant last tuesday. the boyfriend of the girl says that i did it. so i had to fill out a statment form telling them about everything i did that day April 11th, and they took down all my information and are now going to go around contacting all my friends trying to prove what i said was legitimate.
it was honesly the most nerve-wracking thing that i've ever had happen to me. which made me realize what a fucking pansy i am. i mean, i'm being accused of this crime which i didn't commit, and i know that i didn't and when they're just trying to peice together what happened (which is perfectly reasonable, becuas they want to catch whoever did this) i nearly start crying. i ever forgot my own phone number was so rattled.

this semester has really been a set back in many ways, instead of making my last sememster the best one yet, it has been characterized by apathy, nervousness, intimidation, and me retreating more and more into my little comfort bubble and really not willing to come out. this is a complete 180 from who i was in England and i really need to spend some time trying to figure out who i am. i don't blame anyone except myself for allowing this to happen. and its only me who can make a change.

well there it is, my heart on my sleeve, please don't step on it.
And please, Don't feel sorry for me, I don't need pity right now. I'll work through this and move on, this is only a temprary setback.

Missed Opportunities

One of my favorite things about school and learning is when you get the opportunity to do so in creative ways. I've always loved these opportunities to think outside the box and produce some work that was entertaining, creative and educational. this year was one of the first times in a long time where i had the opportunity to do such creative work. the communication project on environmental justice for instance. but unfortunately because of my time-management skills, or lack-there-of, this opporunity was squandered and done very badly. everytime think back to my video and group discussion i can't help but feel embarrassed and sad that i wasn't able to come up with something more original. and now it is going to affect my grade.
whatever i have to get back to work now, as i have a french essay to write tonight.

I'm seeing Green

I had my Tae Kwon Do test today, where we perform our patterm, spar and break boards to get our next belt level. i was a yellow belt and was hoping i'd do well enough to get my yellow-green stripe belt (for those of you not familiar, the pattern goes white belt, novice, then yellow, green, blue, red and then black. there are a bunch of other levels after that but i don't know what they mean so i'm just going to leave it there) idid everything really well, except for the breaking of the boards part. i'd never broken a board punching it before. kicking is fine, thats easy, but they got all the yellow belts to punch through not just one board, but two! but me being me i gave it my all and i punched when the master said go!
I didn't break the boards, and got a bloody nuckle as a result. but it didn't hurt as much as i thought it would, i must have done it wrong, i don't know. so when they handed out the belts, no one was more suprised than i to find out that i had double upgraded and recieved my green belt. that was really awesome. anyways so that was my tae kwon do experience for the day. it was a lot of fun and i'm glad they're holding classes over the summer because now i can proactice a lot more without school getting in the way!

yah thats about all i have to day, its 1/4 to 9pm here and i have to get started on some homework. i have an EIA report due on tuesday that i really have to get done and tons of other things. i just decided to update my blog because no one else has updated theirs, thus i have nothing to read as a procrastination tool. sigh. people get typing!
anyways, back to the grind. one more week it'll all be over! woo hooo!
Rob.

Just a quick e-mail to let you guys know i'm alive

Well i've made it into april. well havebeen shoved into april is more like it. if i had my way it would have stayed march for another 2 weeks, just enought time to get my work done.
this is just a quick post going out to all my UK friends, i'm asking for comments here, cause honestly i haven't heard from some of you in a very long time and well, i'm worried that we've lost contact.
so post a comment. i hope to send you all out e=mails soon. as soon as easter rolls around. i'll have a bit more free time then.
okay, back to work.
Rob,